If you want to say a proper goodbye to the most important person in your life, how should it be?It's not a goodbye because you, or him, wanted to happen, it's a goodbye because it had to happen. So, how should I put in words, feelings and memories?The first day I met you, I was so sad and tired of everything going wrong in my life, so desperate. But then, you changed everything. Every single thing was different just because you were there to hold my hand. Dark turned into light, I had no doubt to open up my soul to you. It was something I had never felt before, it felt like I had known you for centuries. And it was the case. I can talk to you for days, and never feel bored, there's always something to say. Sharing the best and worst moments in my life with someone who won't judge me, or " help me get away even with murder"... Is there anything more special than this? Is there a deeper purpose in one's life? I can't help but wonder...
And now that I lost it, what am I supposed to do? I (or we..) have ruined the best thing ever happened or will happen in our lives. Am I supposed to keep on going, being all miserable and lonely? Have noone to hold my hand, tell me it's gonna be okay? A decent lie... I am not going to do that. I am proud enough to not let myself end up in there.
A decent goodbye, how is it supposed to be said? A letter full of wishes for the best to come in your life? A night full of tears and swearing at my luck? A talk full of desperate feelings and words trying to make sense? Nothing sounds like a decent goodbye. A last action, strong enough to prove all the words I said and you never believed... I will miss you...
